Partie 1

However, these are clearly ineffective for me

I have long since discovered this pattern

I know that as long as he slightly averts his gaze, my world will completely collapse

"What do you mean by splashing water and being extroverted?" Xiao Che sat down beside me, picked up a French fry, and carefully dipped it in ketchup. "Zhong Shenyan, have you been splashed with water again? Sigh, haven't we told you before that in matters of love, quality is more important than quantity"

Although there is more embarrassment now compared to expectations, it cannot be ignored

This perception stems from the fact that Zhong Shenyin, who receives a love letter every two weeks and engages in romantic relationships once a month, has encountered countless women. It is evident that among the general population of women, I am relatively sharp-tongued, mercilessly cutting, treating sarcasm as humor, and viewing ridicule as a hobby.

Wow, even Song Qingxi, who has always sarcastically said, 'Will you die if you don't fall in love?', 'Will you go crazy if you don't date?', 'Will you feel stifled if you don't have sweet nothings?' is in love?" Zhong Shenyin exaggeratedly shouted, "Isn't your famous saying, 'If you don't go out on dates, you won't encounter traffic accidents'? Falling in love requires going out on dates often!"

What are you planning to do this weekend? Therefore, although I felt timid, I still encouraged myself to initiate the conversation

You see, even when two people are locked in a confined space during a date, floating in mid-air, they still remain in a state of silence without any communication

Being weighed down by my dense thoughts, I feel completely lethargic and unable to muster much energy

Although the photo booth shop is clearly still in operation... well, never mind

Thus, after waking up from a daze after school, I realized that besides the classmates on duty, I was the only one left in the classroom

After all, the probability of liking someone and being liked by them in return may not be very high, but as long as communication is maintained and efforts are made to convey one's feelings, there will come a day when he will feel it, and he will be moved

Biting her lip and staring at him, in his view, it was hard to tell whether it was a gaze full of affection or one of fierce menace

Indeed, my lord, you have instructed me to become good friends with your suspected boyfriend. Would I dare to disobey?

Song Qingxi, you can truly be even more sarcastic!

Members of the athletics team are running on the orange plastic track, while not far away, a small basketball game is taking place, with the sound of the ball hitting the ground clearly audible

In fact, the distance from my boyfriend's location is quite far, but since Zeng Ting agreed to go to the amusement park together, it at least shows that he is still sincere about continuing our relationship, doesn't it

There was no explicit rejection of the idea of a "one-month relationship," nor was there any intention from Zeng Ting to initiate such a "one-month relationship," resembling an invisible and transparent wall

I can guess his confusion and understand why he questioned the "special place" I mentioned; it is indeed just an ordinary corner of the school.

Although Zhong Shenyan often says that I am very willful, stubborn, and impulsive, in the face of emotions, in reality, everyone has a very sensitive and delicate side.

I am merely "close yet timid in feelings"

What?" He looked at me hesitantly

Zeng Ting's silence persisted, neither nodding nor shaking his head

Silence is, in fact, a matter of tangible weight, gradually increasing pressure, allowing the heart to slowly immerse in shadows, giving rise to various fears and anxieties

"Well then..." Zeng Ting continued to smile, her tone very natural and calm, "What time shall we meet on Saturday, and where?"

I have never had any feelings for you other than that of a 'classmate.'" Zeng Ting shrugged completely honestly, shook his head, and then said apologetically, "I'm sorry."

Zeng Ting remained silent, merely turning her head to gaze at the sky outside the small window

In just the next moment, my expression changed from joy to surprise— the hand I was holding, that of Ceng Ting, suddenly broke free.

How many relationships will end as soon as they walk out of this amusement park

There is an idiom called "near hometown, feelings of timidity," which is somewhat similar to my current state

Isn't this also natural

One Monday morning a few weeks later, as I walked into the school, it suddenly started to rain

"Zhong Shenyan, if you want someone to pretend to be your girlfriend to get rid of bad relationships next time, if I help you again, I will take your surname," Yao Xiaoche said with a hint of threat

The simple message "Good morning" sent to Zeng Ting in the morning did not receive any reply

Lazily packing up the bag and leaving the classroom, the moment I stepped out of the classroom door, my breath tightened

Such a relationship can serve as a means to avoid an awkward sense of distance, while also transforming into an inexplicable feeling of melancholy or anticipation that arises from an unexpected moment of eye contact.

The two characters "Zeng Ting" shine affectionately on the screen

Being ridiculed by Xiao Che and Zhong Shenyan for pretending to be an artistic child feels like a scene from a pure love movie, slowly walking in an empty corridor with no one around, listening to the slight resonance and echo of my footsteps is my favorite thing

The text messages I send politely say "Good morning" and "Good night~"; they carry a sense of inquiry with phrases like "Do you also find today's exam questions a bit difficult?" and "Can we walk together after evening study?"; in a casual chatting tone, I mention "The air conditioning in the library is too strong" and "There will be an 800-meter test in the next physical education class, how annoying". These messages are very few and far between, and it is only with great difficulty that I can receive his concise replies.

There are also Yao Xiaoche and Lu Wen. Hearing the hesitation in his words, I hurriedly said

Zeng Ting looked at my suddenly serious expression and smiled: "It's just a feeling. I always think that girls seem to like Ferris wheels."

Well

With this thought in mind, I adjusted the curve of my smile as I faced the approaching Zeng Ting, and I cheerfully raised my hand

During the break, of course, it is snack and gossip time. Yao Xiaoche sat down in front of me, tossing a piece of Dove chocolate to me while asking.

I have already behaved very calmly. I have been following him all along, a boy who is both composed and gentle, not self-satisfied yet possessing substance; one should not encounter too many like him in a lifetime. Even more exciting is that he is so good-looking!

There is one physical education class per week, and Class One is scheduled at the exact same time as our class.

If the playground is shaped like the character "口", then this corner is located at the lower left corner of the character "口"

Sitting in the stands of the playground, I slightly tilted my head back, observing Zeng Ting's profile bathed in sunlight, surrounded by a soft halo.

"How about you make a bet with me?" After thinking for a moment, I decided to take a desperate gamble. Trying hard to appear confident, I said, "Let's go downstairs together. If the first person we encounter is a girl, you will date me."

"Is it certain? He likes me, right?" I grabbed Zhong Shenyuan's wrist and shook it. "Has he asked about me? Did you tell him that I've had a crush on him since I started high school? I warn you not to say anything, okay? I want to tell him myself, and make him feel so moved that he can't handle it."

In the numerous instances where I impersonated Zhong Shenyan, saying "Suddenly enlightened, I turned back to find the dim lights in the distance, only to realize that the best and most beloved person is right beside me, my close friend," I couldn't help but think about how exhausting it must be to fall for a guy who loves to play games like this.

Why does it make one feel deeply moved by a smile, a word, or a fleeting glance? Why does something as simple as "holding hands" become a serious matter, filled with a sense of commitment and affirmation?

Seeing my expression shift from astonishment to seriousness, Sen Ting realized that he had misspoken

"I am quite the expert. Let me tell you, when a girl sends and receives text messages with a somewhat dazed smile, it is mostly because she is in love." Zhong Shenyan had a look that seemed to say, "I am just that intelligent."

It feels as if a distance has been created with time and space, transforming the vast night sky into a colossal, magnificent, and eerily empty world that induces a sense of unease

However, it is also overly ethereal and precarious

I can only lean against the small window, watching the crowd come and go, gradually transforming into indistinguishable little silhouettes.

It is entirely in a tone of irony

However, this threat posed no sense of danger to Zhong Shenyin: "Without you, there is still Qingxi, and Qingxi will definitely help me, right?"

"Zhong Shenyan, it is truly inappropriate for you to say such things," Xiao Che said with a pout, her attitude direct. "You should first sort out your own ambiguous romantic entanglements before criticizing whether other boys are reliable or not."

Then isn't it a waste for you to ride the Ferris wheel with me

It is only natural that Lu Wen attracts more attention from girls than Zeng Ting does

The most frequently said phrase by Zhong Shenyan to me, aside from "Song Qingxi, you should cosplay as my girlfriend again," would likely be, "Song Qingxi, you can be a bit more sarcastic."

Excessive tension accelerates the heartbeat to an uncontrollable surge, almost audible in the high sky, impossible to conceal

You have not been very fond of discarding me lately, secretly running off to meet your lover

Zhong Shenyan, who was sitting opposite and busily typing messages on the keyboard, visibly trembled as if startled by the sudden sound

Although Zeng Ting's attitude has indeed hurt me, for instance, the messages I sent him were met with reluctance, and I would only receive his replies very occasionally. Moreover, even when he did respond, it was evident from the tone of his words that he was inevitably indifferent and dismissive.

Can you understand this sense of loss, as if it were a wandering beam of light with no destination and no direction

It is truly beautiful. Xiao Che also looked up, gazing at the towering Ferris wheel adorned with colorful lights, which seemed to belong to a dreamland, and could not help but exclaim in admiration

Secretly smiling to myself, I thought, oh my boyfriend is really so cute

With a sense of confusion regarding the definition of "liking," he slowly shook his head

He even resorted to almost underhanded tactics to make him agree to date for a month

Very poetic

Zhong Shenyan, have you recently fallen out of favor on the 'Campus Flower Handsome Men and Bachelor Ranking', which has caused you to become a little psychologically twisted

Although I am filled with joy, I truly do not even dare to breathe, remaining stiff and unable to move. I notice the temperature on my face rising increasingly, and I cannot help but lower my head, not daring to look at him

Then... let's hold hands. I tried my best to suppress the overwhelming feeling of shyness that was surging within me, and urged myself to reach out my hand towards him.

Hey, what is the difference between 178 and 174? Let me tell you, Song Qingxi, men do not care about height; what men look for is whether a person has shoulders!

However, I just want to be with him

Hmph, I am a man. When it comes to the mindset of the boys you like, I understand it far better than you do, with much more authority. If you do not hurry to flatter me and please me, I guarantee that when you get dumped, you won't even know why you are crying

Zeng Ting unexpectedly walked over, patting my back as I bent over and coughed heavily, repeatedly asking, "Are you okay?"

Uh ... ... In fact ... ... he ... ... "Zhong Shenyin furrowed his brows slightly, his originally large eyes squinting like two slits, exuding a sense of humor rather than handsomeness. "Actually ... ... ah, your phone is ringing.

Please, even if you, Ting, are an outstanding student and I am not, even if you are indeed quite good-looking, I have always heard that someone has a crush on you, while I have always lacked romantic fortune and have never been confessed to. However, as a girl, I have mustered the courage to confess to you, and you should at least reciprocate a little, right

Even if it is just a little, please understand the expectations in my heart and the pain caused by being anticipated

In the corridor, I still encountered Zeng Ting

Because "I like you" is a fact that one cannot lie to oneself about, no matter what.

The corner of the staircase after school is excessively quiet and empty, and even my slightly raised voice seems to evoke an echo

I pretended not to notice the profound smiles of Lu Wen and Yao Xiao Che, my heart filled with half anxiety and half sweetness

Your level of intelligence is not well placed. I absentmindedly glance at the cheerful smile of Xiao Che, and then at my phone, which has been silent all day.

Class 1's classroom is located on the far left of the third floor, while our classroom is on the far right of the third floor. Even though turning right out of the classroom allows for an immediate descent to the lower floor, I would always prefer to take the longer route and deliberately pass by Class 1's classroom, glancing through the window to catch a glimpse of him.

Zhong Shenyan's explanation was interrupted by my frantic waving in front of the store entrance. Without turning around, he said: "Is Xiao Che here? Alone or with someone?"

Zhong Shenyan displayed a clear and affirmative expression, saying, "Song Qingxi, you are either blind or crazy." He continued, "If I were Zeng Ting, with your nonsensical self-perception, it would be a miracle if I were to take a liking to you!"

A boy who can ask such a question... should you say he is upright or dull

As if one has received acknowledgment, permission, or recognition of their position

I ask with absolute doubt: "Really?"

Do you believe I can make you cry right away?" Xiao Che snatched the phone from Zhong Shenyan's hand, navigated to the "Delete All Contacts" option in the address book, placed his hand on the "Confirm" button, and threatened him very clearly.

"Zhong Shenyan, you too, stop playing around in the world. Isn't it better to seriously find a girlfriend and settle down?" I laughed heartily

Yet still cautiously, slowly, little by little, intertwined her fingers with his

Zeng Ting also responded with a smile

Looking at the gradually distant and dimming lights, I softly said: "I have always wanted to ride the Ferris wheel at night"

Regardless, this is the first time in sixteen years that I, as an older sister, have developed feelings for a boy, and it is also my first time confessing to a boy! Regardless, after secretly harboring a crush for nearly a year, I finally mustered the courage, steeled my heart, thickened my skin, and lowered my self-esteem to elevate my secret crush to an open one!

Of course we won I nodded vigorously

Until leaving the small space of the Ferris wheel, Zeng Ting did not let go of his hand

In the first year of high school, where classes are divided based on grades, Class One and my Class Four are, of course, separated by a considerable distance, making it quite difficult for the two directions to intersect.

Can you understand the loneliness buried behind my childish reasons and actions?

The sound of rain falls upon the quiet campus, creating a sense of spaciousness and clarity. I lean on the corridor, gazing at the broad playground shrouded in a fine curtain of rain.

The Ferris wheel rises ever higher, and the dazzlingly radiant carousel has become too distant

The person I have liked for a long time suddenly occupies a place beside me, and it is only natural to have the feeling of wanting to cherish and protect it well, a sentiment that makes one reluctant to let go

Why does it make one feel deeply moved by a smile, a word, or a fleeting glance?

The rain powder transforms into a mist, flowing in with the wind, leaving a damp and cold sensation on the cheeks

photo booth

Hmm. Zeng Ting sincerely nodded, intending to conclude this confession

So... do you have someone you like

I am certainly more reliable than your ambiguous partner, Lu Wen. He is my classmate, and I can say that at a glance, that guy clearly has a face that attracts trouble with girls

Although both individuals are quite handsome, compared to Zeng Ting's subtlety and restraint, Lu Wen is simply a trendy man

Clearly aware of having no stance, yet still unable to help but feel jealous

Yao Xiaoche, you should have a bit of confidence in yourself, please. Although Zhong Shenyan often talks nonsense, I completely agree with him that Lu Wen clearly has a face that attracts trouble with girls. But so what if Lu Wen has many admirers? I always feel that your relationship is more ambiguous than that of normal classmates, so you should be a bit more proactive, even more proactive. Look at Zeng Ting, who is so reserved and aloof; I still bravely took the initiative and managed to win him over.

Hello, you suddenly... never mind

However, such feelings cannot be expressed to anyone

It is not due to diligence

Who else is there

I raised my hand and waved, forcing a smile. I knew this felt somewhat childish, yet I couldn't think of a better or more natural way to greet.

Zhong Shenyan's theory is not universally applicable; there are indeed boys who do not like to send text messages

Therefore, in the face of Zeng Ting's hard expression of "Are you kidding me?", it is only natural that I would feel my self-esteem has been severely damaged

Thus, in the end, I abandoned all my pride and mustered all my courage to confess to him

Damn it

In fact, I was mentally prepared, yet I still couldn't help but feel, in intricate detail, that loneliness and insecurity were striking the most vulnerable part of my heart, spreading an undeniable sense of sorrow.

"It would be best if you have everything completely sorted out." Looking at my triumphant smile, Xiao Che couldn't help but laugh as well

I know that within my heart lies a sense of satisfaction that has become somewhat melancholic due to excessive joy

The vertical support of the Ferris wheel at its highest point slowly yet firmly overlaps with the window

I stepped onto the staircase of dreams and walked into a misty forest

Well, although it is a bit sudden, it is actually not a big deal

I do not even dare to speculate whether he is intentionally planning to stand me up

The distance between us is such an ambiguous one, accompanied by such a clear posture. Regardless, it is impossible to pretend that the blurred boundaries still exist

Indeed

It would be wonderful if one could remain at the pinnacle of happiness forever

No

I have never understood why you are so fixated on Zeng Ting. There are many boys who are more handsome, humorous, kind, and gentle than him. " Zhong Shenyan said dismissively, "I only tell you this as a friend: someone who agrees to be your boyfriend just because of a bet is not reliable. Don't trust boys too easily.

Am I really so unbearable?

It is such a vast sense of happiness

Not everyone is like Zhong Shenyan or Lu Wen, who are always attached to their phones, constantly sending messages

The sky is right at the nearest place

Moreover, Zeng Ting is feeling shy

Would it kill you to show a little respect? Can't you be a bit more tactful? I like you more than you like me, and that's something remarkable

Thus, I transformed a leisurely walk into a sprint, and I ran breathlessly into the teaching building, climbing up to the third floor where the classroom is located, finally allowing my breathing to return to normal

"Will you be my friend? Are you also finding it difficult?"

I slowly took it, he smiled gently again, and then turned to walk towards the end of the corridor, entering the classroom of Class 1, Grade 10

Although he would politely respond with a smile, it seems he has forgotten me

Especially against the backdrop of couples walking towards the amusement park with their joyful smiles, Zeng Ting and Lu Wen appeared

Zeng Ting is not ambiguous with anyone, calm and quiet, naturally honest—yet so what? I still cannot get close to his heart.

However, relentlessly seeking opportunities to be with him, as if under constant surveillance, is ultimately futile, isn't it

However, for me, the matter of "liking someone" occurred in an unexpected manner

Oh dear, it's quite troublesome to mess up my hairstyle... However, never mind.

When I first entered the first year of high school, I always arrived at school earlier than everyone else

Since that is the case, spending a serious month with me will not cause harm to anyone, will it? Even though my pupils are somewhat pained by the sunlight, I still focus intently on Zeng Ting's profile. Can you just consider it as fulfilling a wish for me, treating it as a game, and enjoying this game?

Classmate Song Qingxi, dating is not a game, isn't this a bit too hasty?" Zeng Ting smiled gently, looking directly into my eyes, and outright rejected my proposal

What?

Therefore, I am now someone who has a boyfriend. I do not conceal it at all, and I express my pride openly.

In contrast to the calm and uneventful nature of daily life, there are many girls who harbor secret crushes on him, yet most are kept at bay by his composed demeanor. Occasionally, a figure like Zeng Ting, with her occasional disruptions, emerges, such as Song Qingxi, who disturbs his rhythm. Lu Wen is, in fact, vibrant and colorful, a myriad of hues, capable of standing shoulder to shoulder with Zhong Shenyan, that flamboyant character, forming a combination that can proudly laugh amidst the blossoms.

Nonsense, I certainly heard my phone ringing.

Zhong Shenyan complained for quite a while on the phone, expressing a sense of indignation; the main idea was, "You actually went to the amusement park for a night outing without bringing me!"

"Just because each of you now has a suspected boyfriend, you think you are all love experts," said Zhong Shenyan

Whose secrets were eavesdropped by angels, causing ripples to arise

In such a high sky, with such dim light, his eyes still shine with a breathtaking brilliance

Looking up at the highest point of the Ferris wheel, the rain powder continues to paint, and the world is shrouded in soft light

Looking at Zhong Shenyuan, who raised his right hand in a gesture of swearing while still showing a look of grievance, I did not hesitate to give him a single word—"Get lost"

A voice interrupted the melody of the rain tapping in my heart, and I turned my head.

Because ... ... I just like it. I am sure my face is full of a serious expression, "Because you are you"

Such a feeling of anxiety intertwined with anticipation, a sense of unease yet an irresistible inclination to fantasize, how should one articulate this

The moment when overly anticipated dreams become reality is still elusive and illusory, akin to the virtual.

Please, are you saying that you, Zeng Ting, and I, along with him, are good? I estimate that Zhong Shenyan has also done quite a bit of persuasion with him, and thus, like me, he has a good heart and thinks that you and Zeng Ting will feel awkward on your first date alone, which is why he is willing to come along as company

Although it is still faint and subtle, there is always a feeling that... At this moment, he is in a very good mood

He probably cannot see how truly special it is

When the exam results are announced, the first thing one seeks is not their own name and score, but rather the name and position of others. Hearing someone in the crowd say with admiration, "Zeng Ting is once again in the top ten," brings more joy than discovering that one has advanced by one hundred places.

Certainly

Ah... the person I just passed by... uh, I thought... uh, I thought I ran into an acquaintance." Zeng Ting explained a bit flustered, with a face full of apology

Oh, like this... I always feel parched. I took out the bottle of mineral water that I had packed in the morning, which was only one-third full, opened it, and took a sip.

He fell silent for a moment, then clasped his hands together above his head and said, "I am sorry, I am willing to accept any punishment you impose."

It is impossible not to know what a photo booth is, but why take a picture of it

However, I am simply infatuated with him alone, so in front of him, I always appear hesitant, indecisive, and flustered. In his eyes, I probably seem clumsy and natural.

The truth of love is perhaps exchanging nine parts of bitterness for one part of sweetness

Yet I do not know that such sweetness may vanish even more swiftly than the white breath exhaled in winter

It has a bitterness of 5 parts and astringency of 4 parts

This philosopher, are you mistaken? Stability? I am only 16 years old, thank you. I have not yet seen the beautiful scenery of this world, I cannot settle down

"Then... a month. If the first person you meet later is a girl, you should try to date me for a month." I took a step back

Thus... thus, Zeng Ting smiled, suddenly reached out to ruffle my hair, and said, "Then next time, it's quite late today."

He even stopped in his tracks as he approached me, adopting a posture for conversation

Let it be a loss. I am happy

Do you really need to be so blatantly inhumane? Song Qingxi, just look at your little ambition; aren't you just a mere Zeng Ting?

The initial situation of the date with the four of us has once again aligned. If viewed from an outsider's perspective, it still seems that Lu Wen and Xiao Che are the proper couple, while Zeng Ting and I appear to be in a state of ambiguous entanglement.

The first time holding hands with a boy

Why does it make such a simple act as "holding hands" become serious, filled with a sense of commitment and affirmation

"Do you know? This place is very special." I quickly found a topic to interrupt Zeng Ting's words

Those thoughts, jagged and persistent, that move back and forth in my heart, are a reality that cannot be concealed in any way

But I still desperately comfort myself that this is just a process and that it will surely transform in the future

"Hey, are you really planning to leave like this?"

How many are like me, tightly holding onto a faint hope, enduring suppression, denial, and indifference, yet still unwilling to give up

The wind flows in through my small window and then drifts out again. The Ferris wheel gradually rises according to its design, leaving the ground and merging into the night sky, as if entering another dimension, evoking a subtle feeling that there are only two people in the entire world.

What are we waiting for, let's go! Lu Wen unhesitatingly pulled Xiao Che and dove into the small space that had just stopped in front of them, making it seem as if they were the legitimate couple, while Zeng Ting and I appeared to be the ones in a vague and ambiguous relationship.

It is truly extremely embarrassing

There is not much homework this week, and I have not thought it through yet

In any case, I have nothing much to do. Moreover, I have never been to the amusement park in the evening, and I am a bit curious about it

A brightly lit and bustling store caught my attention, and I stopped in my tracks. I tugged at Zeng Ting's sleeve and said, "Look, there is a machine for taking photo booth pictures! Let's go take some photo booth pictures."

But I absolutely, absolutely, absolutely will not back down, nor will I give up

"Zeng Ting, do you actually have a girlfriend?" I asked softly

Zhong Shenyan once stated that the degree of concern one person has for another can be quantified by the text message reply, which is approximately equal to the number of characters in the message, multiplied by a value X, divided by the response time in seconds, and then multiplied by 100. The value X represents the emotional tone you perceive from the reply, ranging from trivial to very high, assessed on a score from 1 to 10.

Strictly speaking, it should actually be classified as I was cast aside

What a lover you are. If you were truly a lover, would I still be so anxious and agitated

After school on Friday, I did not invite Xiao Che to go shopping, nor did I agree to accompany Zhong Shenyan on a date to appreciate the new girl he has met

In this day and age, having a personality is certainly better than lacking one; I have no intention of holding back at all

Yet there is a hint of sweetness to it

In the backdrop of the rain curtain enveloping the world, a boy, approximately ten centimeters taller than me, smiled gently and handed me a pack of unopened, brand new tissues, saying: "Wipe your hair a little; otherwise, catching a cold would be quite unfortunate."

I always feel that the actions akin to treating a kitten are filled with much tenderness and indulgence, to be honest, I really like it

If I give up, then the parallel relationship between "Song Qingxi and Zeng Ting" and all the connections between them will be lost

It is as if the amusement park, the Ferris wheel, the warmth of holding hands, and all the details are scenarios I have fabricated.

Although it was a voluntary choice, the feeling of happiness that was almost unbearable was real and tangible, as if all the stars in the world were shining around us at the same time, illuminating the brilliance of the entire universe, so splendid, so grand, so sweet

It merely belongs to itself, a humble and secret existence

Song Qingxi, is there a place you would like to go?

Even if you ultimately do not like me, we have at least spent time together seriously, and thus we have a foundation for friendship

"What do you know? Right now, girls like me, the girl-next-door type, are the most popular." I twirled the ballpoint pen in my hand, determined not to be affected by Zhong Shenyan's deliberately malicious remarks. "I am clearly a combination of Jolin Tsai and Zeng Yike, a sweet and neat girl. I have a pure appearance, an approachable personality, a naturally clean and innocent face, and a playful and innocent temperament. My character is cheerful and unpretentious, making me someone who can easily leave a good impression and be well-liked!"

Are you a boy? Is it really necessary to be this timid? I threw the straw onto the tray, removed the lid from the cup containing the cola, and simply started drinking directly.

My relationship with Zeng Ting has once again turned into infrequent text messages, where he will never call unless I take the initiative to do so, and we maintain a clear distance at school. There has also been no opportunity to propose a "next time" date. No matter how hard I try to encourage myself, convincing myself with the reasoning of "Oh, we have held hands after all," I still doubt that Zeng Ting and I have not progressed any further.

I glanced at the mobile phone screen placed on the desk and then immediately picked it up

I cannot give up

We exchanged a knowing glance with Xiao Che, and together we chose to ignore Zhong Shenyan

What are you talking about? I know what you're thinking, but I am not like that. Song Qingxi, let me tell you, those boys who usually appear obedient and devoted, like Zeng Ting, are actually just suppressing and disguising themselves, do you understand? Such boys, once they have the opportunity to go out and have fun, will definitely change for the worse! On the contrary, it is boys like me, and also Lu Wen, who are accustomed to the world and have experienced the pleasures of life, who can remain unperturbed, do you know that?

I now have a master. I raised my head and gave Zhong Shenyin a helpless smile.

Zhong Shenyan rolled his eyes in a manner that conveyed a meaning akin to "you've got some nerve" and took a hearty bite of his hamburger

Those who have believed in sailing through countless sails, and finally meet their destined person, who, after tiring of the game, realize that the one who has always loved him with pure innocence is their true soulmate, are all poisoned by the fantasies of pink bubbles and rainbows.

It is hard to say. After all, elementary school is elementary school, and now Zhong Shenyuan can certainly be considered a handsome young man; he is also quite aware of how to showcase his charm.

Although Zhong Shenyan said that a girl being late indicates modesty, I do not want to leave a bad impression of being unpunctual on Zeng Ting. Therefore, I took Xiao Che with me early and arrived at the agreed-upon entrance of the amusement park.

Go ahead and play. What is that saying? Is it fate? A narrow road meets? After climbing many mountains, one eventually encounters a tiger? It is not that there is no retribution, but that the time has not yet come

You must acknowledge that I am quite experienced in matters of love said Zhong Shenyin with great pride Speaking of which, your relationship with Zeng Ting is rather abnormal He is purely forced to date you because he lost a bet unlike you who has been secretly in love with him for a long time Don't get too invested to avoid getting hurt yourself

The scenery of a part of this city, along with the dazzling lights resembling countless stars, becomes the backdrop for this conversation

Even though I repeatedly suppress my self-esteem and take the initiative to call him, his indifference remains too evident. The most frequent elements in our conversations are silence and awkwardness, which hardly qualify as genuine communication. Each call rarely lasts more than two minutes

You are mistaken. Zhong Shenyin said with a smug expression, "You all do not understand; the most essential secret to romance is to use a long line to catch a big fish. However, many people are unaware of its ultimate essence and highest technique"

In the slow rotation, we have detached ourselves from the ordinary world

Who cares if you have a crush on him? Don't compare yourself to my boyfriend. He is among the top ten in his grade, he is the class monitor, he is an all-around excellent student, he has both height and looks, he is never ostentatious, he clearly has a lot of admirers but has never had any rumors, he is a naturally handsome guy without any additives, he is the one I have had a crush on since I enrolled, he has never flirted with anyone and has no countless ex-girlfriends, he is the class monitor. So, compared to him, who are you?

Eh

Why

The halo of light radiating around him creates an illusion that he would instantly vanish if one were to reach out and touch him

It is essential to find a topic to break this awkward situation. Thinking this, I looked around, searching for a topic that could be naturally integrated into the conversation

"Let us go as well," said Zeng Ting.

I can only encourage myself in this way to combat the waves of sorrow that erode my heart.

I like you. This is not a joke

"I will text you once the time and place are set." I nodded eagerly, completely forgetting the repeated emphasis of Zhong Shenyan on "Be reserved! Be reserved!"

I have more than once entertained the thought of severing Xiao Che's affection for him and cutting the pink connection between them after witnessing Lu Wen's interactions with other girls

You have won

I know I have no grounds to blame him, nor do I have any desire to do so. However, since he has laid out the conditions, wouldn't it be a waste not to seize the opportunity

"It's nothing, um... thank you." I finally caught my breath, stood up straight, and looked into Zeng Ting's eyes. "Could we, um, if you have time, go to the amusement park together on a weekend evening?"

Of course, I did not make any arrangements with Xiao Che and Lu Wen, and it is very likely that I will not be able to arrange anything. However, if it is just Zeng Ting and me, then he will definitely have some resistance, I think

Moreover, this naturally sets the date for the next appointment, which is wonderful

Song Qingxi, a one-month agreement... Although Zeng Ting's voice was not loud, the direction was clearly something I did not want to confront

It seems that the two of us now resemble a genuine couple.

All show and no substance. If you have the ability, go humiliate Zeng Ting.

Always holding onto the expectation that "if we spend time together, at least he will acknowledge the existence of someone like 'Song Qingxi' in his life," unwilling to let go

As we walked towards the exit of the amusement park, our arrangement naturally divided into two sides. Lu Wen and Xiao Che walked side by side three meters ahead, while Zeng Ting and I walked quietly, the conversation momentarily falling into silence

My voice becomes softer, softer still

There is a hint of sweetness remaining

The air is very humid, and the rain has not yet taken shape; what drifts through the sky, carried by the wind, is a fine mist of rain. It falls on the hair, shimmering under the neon reflections at the entrance of the amusement park, scattering delicate rays of light, resembling countless tiny stars.

Song Qingxi, I warn you, do not look at me with such an obviously sarcastic gaze. When have I ever disregarded loyalty for those flowers? Am I not the first to appear whenever you have any matters?" Zhong Shenyan said gloomily, "So this is what the ancients meant by 'outgoing girls.' I finally understand why it is said that water spilled cannot be retrieved.

There always seems to be an inexplicable and unclear barrier that prevents closer proximity. Perhaps this is due to placing too much importance on it, which leads to tension

From that day on, I do not know why, I began to pay attention to searching for him in the crowd, and if our eyes met, I would give him a smile

Although I understand that if he were to "try getting along" with every girl who confesses to him, he would become another Zhong Shenyin, rather than the Zeng Ting I know, who is secretly in love.

From a distance that spans almost the entire playground, I can still identify that one person among the more than forty individuals in sportswear who are running.

As for the quality of Zeng Ting, I, as a male, have no objections. However, Song Qingxi, as your friend, I still have the right to express that your willfulness, combined with arrogance, your sharp tongue steeped in bitterness, and your unrefined yet not particularly sentimental homebody demeanor and personality, standing next to Zeng Ting, do you not feel the disparity yourself

With force, he waved the three straws in his hand, sweeping them over the edge of the table, producing a sharp sound that sliced through the air

Although the mobile phone is an investment I made with my own money, it still shows no regard for its owner, as it has not displayed the new message I eagerly anticipated from Shengting.

Even if he asked Zhong Shenyan to inquire about his name, his class, his exemplary image as a class monitor, and where he lived, to him, "Song Qingxi" was merely a stranger, not even a concrete symbol.

However, for me, this is probably my favorite place in the school

Girls often have fantasies about Ferris wheels

In the line of sight, there are no longer the silhouettes of the amusement park, but only him

"To be allowed to humiliate you is an honor; I only humiliate those I find pleasing to the eye, it is a compliment." I said with great pride

As the class monitor, it is only natural to feel somewhat uncomfortable with openly holding hands with girls

Like countless girls who have fallen for someone, it naturally and simply became my entire concern

What exactly is the nature of love

Where did you learn that from

Look, here it comes again. You, Zhong Shenyin, have known me for quite some time, since the fourth grade of elementary school until the first year of high school. We have been classmates and close friends for so long. Yet, we keep going back to this same unremarkable rebuttal. I really don't understand what those girls who like him see in him, aside from that face which is indeed somewhat handsome.

Even if my agreement to date Zeng Ting was out of his sincerity or a joke; whether it was out of sympathy or emotion, it remains uncertain

"Of course it is one person, what are you implying?"

"In consideration of our close friendship, I will give you a benefit." With a face that exuded a strong sense of authority, Zhong Shenyan whispered, "The most fundamental principle of fishing for big catches with long lines is— you must cast out ten lines at the same time"

If only the Ferris wheel would stop operating

Do you understand that this is a different time? I now have a boyfriend! My boyfriend is one of the top ten students in the entire grade, an elite whom many girls have their eyes on, and the class monitor of Class 1 in the first year of high school, the handsome and reserved Zeng Ting. From now on, when he asks me out, I will never be late; I will only smile for him, do you understand

Well, since we are classmates, I said, 'I like you,' and you replied, 'Thank you, let's spend some time together to see if we are suitable for each other.' Is that not acceptable? Since we have already reached this point, I tore off the facade of a shy, demure girl confessing her feelings, and returned to my usual self, glaring at him and saying unwillingly.

Zeng Ting mentioned next time, then let it be next time

Zeng Ting reluctantly accepted the matter of "dating for one month" due to a "promise," and in my heart, I have been torn between two thoughts, pulling in two extreme directions

Such a gaze, more feelings, is loneliness

Zhong Shenyan's tone now is quite sour; if those girls who like him were to hear it, certainly half of them... No, it would be two-thirds, would immediately realize that Zhong Shenyan is truly immature and unstable to an extreme degree, and they would instantly abandon him.

In this moment, I am full of vitality yet completely at a loss for words—though it is merely a simple matter of "gathering the courage to confess my feelings to Zeng Ting, only to be rejected by him," the sadness in my heart is nonetheless genuine.

There was no clear affirmation, nor was there any denial. Zeng Ting looked at me, who was clearly nervous, and smiled again: "Do you really like me? Are you not joking or anything?"

The world remains in profound, profound silence

Zeng Ting's right hand, carrying a clean warmth, gently held my left hand

Especially?" Zeng Ting looked around.

How many of these people are newly in love couples

It seems that the sense of distance has been eliminated by such a sudden event

I have always wanted to ride the Ferris wheel at night I said while quietly glancing at Zeng Ting who was standing behind me

Time helps me design, in the next second, who is the mysterious guest

A week has passed since the confirmation of our relationship, yet Zeng Ting remains unchanged towards me, just as before. When we occasionally encounter each other in the corridor, he merely nods and smiles openly, then naturally brushes past me, causing my heart, which beats with nervousness and shyness, to plummet from the peak of anticipation straight into the dark, icy depths.

He made me acutely aware of my own naivety and the weight of reality

What kind of existence is it

Zhong Shenyan continued to complain incessantly, only to be interrupted by the sound of a text message arriving on Yao Xiaoche's phone

You are wet

If they knew that my good relationship with Zhong Shenyan stemmed from the fact that he, being weak and somewhat boyish in elementary school, was always bullied by the boys in our class, and that I, who had a sharp tongue and a bit of arrogance from a young age, bravely stood up for him out of a sense of justice, would they feel that their dreams have been shattered

So... do you often talk about me? My demeanor is one of genuine self-satisfaction

"A rare four-person date, who would bring a deadweight?" After decisively hanging up on Zhong Shenyan, who was still wailing on the phone without restraint, I winked at Xiao Che with pride, "I told you, Lu Wen must have a little interest in you. Otherwise, how could he immediately agree when I mentioned that you wanted to go to the amusement park with him for a night outing!"

The time taken for the Ferris wheel to complete one rotation is 25 minutes

... ... Hmm. Although it is quiet and soft, the sense of determination is undeniable

I ordered a hamburger, cola, fries, and a strawberry sundae for myself, and also ordered mashed potatoes, fries, and chicken nuggets for Xiao Che, who would join us later. After settling into my seat, I took out my phone to check if Zeng Ting had replied to my message

Hello, you can't possibly not know what a photo booth is, can you? I have to wonder if you are a prehistoric human

Nodding slightly, I followed him into the small carriage

However, upon serious reflection, I realize that I do not have a position to speak from

You know again

It is truly not my fault—Lu Wen is not like Zhong Shenyan, who finds pleasure in frequently changing opponents with a variety of tactics. However, he maintains harmonious relationships with all the girls who come close to him. To put it plainly, he appears to be ambiguously involved with everyone, and this attitude and character make me feel that Xiao Che's affection for him is destined to lead to suffering.

I was slightly injured, and I looked up at Zeng Ting with a hint of suspicion.

We are not in the same class, but we are classmates

It was originally the case that how could love be based on the principle of 'casting a long line to catch big fish'? I raised the French fries and shook them in front of Zhong Shenyin, saying, 'There must be no harvest at all'

This is my personal advice; being in a romantic relationship is not about dividing spoils, and there is no principle of fifty-fifty. The one who falls in love first is destined to lose, just like that saying in the world: 'Don't take it seriously; if you do, you will lose.' If you were not my good friend since elementary school, I would not share these truths with you. I truly have your best interests at heart; I feel the most pity for those little lambs who have never been in love.

Oh?

I took a deep breath: "Zeng Ting, you know, you know, right? I like you."

You are indeed more challenging. Don't say that I am biased; just look, aside from the advantages listed above, he is even taller than you.

Thus, it remains unnoticed and imperceptible

Wow, what kind of friend are you? Cursing me to experience a breakup? I shot a fierce glare at Zhong Shenyin.

Huh? I never expected him to actively ask such a question, and the water I had just sipped went down the wrong way, causing me to cough violently

I know that all my worries will become reality, while what I hope for has always been merely hope

This is my secret base. At dusk, the sunlight here always disappears last. Looking up, I gaze at the courtyard.

However, regardless, I still want to make an effort to see.

Not hearing it can signify its non-existence. Even if that is a truth that cannot be concealed no matter how hard one tries

I glanced at the time on my phone; there are ten minutes left until the scheduled 8 o'clock.

Therefore, during the breaks, Zhong Shenyan, who always loves to cross over from Class 1 and Class 2 to our Class 4, continued to ask while chasing after me and Xiao Che to seek a sense of presence

Oh? Zeng Ting actually responded, "It seems that girls all have fantasies about the Ferris wheel"

Zhong Shenyan, this fellow, still tries to keep things under wraps, truly lacking in loyalty

"Do not slander my boyfriend," I shot a sharp glance at Zhong Shenyan, then switched to a smiling expression. "Have you been talking to Zeng Ting often these days?"

After a silence of ten seconds, Zhong Shenyan suddenly leaned closer to me and whispered, "Xiao Che and Lu Wen must be involved with each other."

Or perhaps it is truly as Zhong Shenyan said, the one who loves more is the one who loses

Any

Only his expression is submerged in the shadows where the light cannot reach, making it difficult to discern whether he is indifferent or impatient

"Alright, you were right about your feelings." I shrugged, deciding to forgive myself for my instinct to feel jealous, "Isn't it incredibly romantic to watch the lights of the entire city from the Ferris wheel at night with someone you love most?"

I widened my eyes: "I want to put it in my wallet, and then I can show it off to others—this is my boyfriend."

Amusement park? In the evening?" Zeng Ting thought for a moment and said, "You, and me?"

Love